Milford Fun Days

Well this years theme for Milford Fun Days was Milford 500. I can say that the committee comes up with some pretty good themes for our annual town festival, but the activities that goes on just keeps going down hill it seems like in my personal opinion. It has gotten to where that I don’t even attend the festivities anymore because there isn’t anything interesting there like there used to be when I was a kid or even before then. The best thing about the weekend in my honest opinion is the themes they come up with.

I wish that they would bring some better entertainment back for all ages to enjoy such as amusement rides like they used to have. They used to have the Milford Jaycee’s that helped out with Fundays but they disbanded as well. Any of the festivities that they really care about is the good ole Beer Tent, as that is about the only thing that brings in money. They don’t the flea markets like they used to have or the food vendors either. I go to other festivities instead, such as the National Sweetcorn Festival in Hoopeston, Illinois, the Iroquois County Fair, or the Sheldon Fun Days as they all have much better entertainment for all ages to enjoy.


Pride 2017

I can say that this year I won’t be attending Pride 2017 in Chicago like I had plans on doing as it was something that I wanted to do this year. But it’s ok, I am going to go to Champaign-Urbana and go to their Pride celebration and it will be the first time of me going to Pride in Champaign-Urbana during September. I am looking forward to seeing what Champaign-Urbana has to offer for Pride for events as this will be something new and exciting for me to go to this year and am looking forward to going and enjoying myself.

I am going to take a couple of my friends with me so that I’m not going alone as this is something new for me as when I go somewhere new or an event that is new to me, I always go with a friend or a few friends. Although I would much rather go to a much bigger Pride celebration, but one can’t complain as I will be celebrating amongst others in the same thing.

So here’s to Pride 2017 and what it all has to offer.

Surgery?? Possibly??

Well I went to the doctor today for the results of my MRI that I done on my right knee for the chronic pain, as the meds and physical therapy didn’t work. And the results are in…I have to see the orthopedic surgeons for my knee as there is an impingement within the knee and might have to have surgery on it. First they are gonna use a camera and go inside my knee and explore and see what all they can find whats wrong and then we will go from there.

I can say that my mom is worried sick already and stressing about it and says that she is going to be there and is going with me to the appointment to find out what is going on. So now I am playing the waiting game on ortho to call me with my appointment in Champaign.

I am a little nervous about it but also am excited as well. I’m excited as I’m getting closer to finding out what is wrong and getting it fixed and taken care of. I’m nervous as there is possibly surgery and that is something that I have never had done. I know that there is a strong possibility that they will do the exploratory on my knee at the first appointment, and I won’t be able to drive home as they will be putting me on a light sedative for the procedure.

So while I am waiting on the doctors to call and make my appointments I am going to just chill and relax and enjoy my time and try not to mess up my knee any worse than it is already. In a way I’m kinda hoping that they admit me into the hospital even for the exploratory as the hospital that I will be going to is my favorite and a top 50 in the United States. I’ve been in this hospital before as a patient for other reasons and they treated me with the utmost respect and dignity like everyone should receive unlike other hospitals (Iroquois Memorial) do.

This hospital that I will be at has the best physicians and nursing staff around and couldn’t ask for anything better. So here it is to me waiting on getting to this new appointment and possibly being admitted into the hospital for some surgery or surgery type procedure.

Self Admission

Depressed and manic! I haven’t been to bed in like 3 days as I haven’t been able to sleep as i have had a lot of energy and haven’t been able to contain but not enough energy to do any house work as i’m not doing that anymore because when i do i get downgraded and i’m tired of it. I was just told by someone that i’m a people pleaser and do almost any to make everyone happy well guess that shit is going to change as i’m going to start worrying about me and taking care of myself. I am currently sitting in the hospital in Urbana waiting on a crisis counselor to come and evaluate me so that i can possibly be admitted into the hospital for mental help with my bipolar. As this is the first time of me doing this on my own and by myself i am a little nervous and anxious. Every other time i was admitted it was because of self harm from intentional drug overdose and did not have a say and the originating hospital done it all. So here’s to me making a change for myself for once.

Well I can say that I was not able to get admitted into the hospital after speaking with the crisis counselor. They didn’t feel that I was a threat to myself or others and there was no need for me to be admitted into the hospital. Instead they referred me to a psychiatrist but am on a waitlist to be seen there so I have to continue with the medications that I am currently on along with the current dosage that I am taking. So in a way it was a waste of time for me to make a trip to Champaign, but I got to see some parts of Champaign that I haven’t got to explore yet.

Throwback to California

Well I got me a new a phone the other day and found an old SD card and put it in my phone and I came across a lot of my pictures from when I went to California and on my way back from California in 2012. This was one of the best times of my life that I have ever had, and it brings back so many memories that I want to recreate and make more. California is such a beautiful state that I wish I would’ve never left. I should’ve just stayed there and never looked back but guess what, this dumb ass here came back and got his life destroyed. These are memories that I will cherish forever.


Current Life

Well I can say that I just found out some interesting information that just pisses me off to the max. I have been holding in so much frustrations that I want to end up blowing a gasket but I get informed by my mother, that I just need to keep my mouth shut because the people that live here are wanting me to open my mouth and blow up. She told me not to do anything. How can I live somewhere, where I have to walk on eggshells and hope I don’t piss anyone off and then be persecuted by them for only god knows what. This is not the life that I asked for and nor am I going to live it either. If I can’t live in my home normally and be able to speak my own opinions then what’s the point of even living here then. There is no point of even living here then, so I have begun the process of looking for another place to live so that I can live my life the way that I need to and have to. And if nobody likes that then they can all just kiss my ass.


Lastnight I went to bed knowing everything I could know about my community that I live in and have lived in my entire life. I wake up this morning to horrendous and terrifying news. I wake up finding out that someone was murdered right here in my hometown that I live in. I don’t even know this town anymore it seems like. This is a close nit community we know everyone. This isn’t the first murder that this town has encountered. This will mark the third murder in my life that I know of. But murder does have some precedence in my opinion of what this nation is going to turn into since our presidential elections a week ago. I don’t want to believe that the elections had something to do with this, but it is a coincidence that this happen at this time. With everything that I have seen on the news with all of the protests going on still, and middle schoolers chanting, to build the wall that trump promised he would do this makes perfect since. I pray and hope that the nation I was born in and respect so much isn’t turning into this racist community. Something needs to be done and has to be done before it gets worse. Whats bad is if it does pertain to Donald Trump being president, he hasn’t even taken the oath yet, and already seeing and witnessing things like this. Can you imagine what the nation will be like once he takes the oath of being President and Commander-in-Chief. Things like this is just outright disrespectful of our country, that has came so far, and showing the freedoms that we give people that come here. We have our military fighting and protecting us from outcries like this and protecting our freedom. We have to continue to stand up for our rights and what America stands for and let them know we won’t tolerate actions like this towards others. I can honestly say, that I do not know Milford anymore like I thought I did. It has changed and not for the better.

Milford Burglary/Homicide Investigation
Milford Burglary/Homicide Investigation

Orlando 😢

When hearing about the nation’s largest shooting massacre in Orlando at the gay nightclub Pulse. I was in complete shock and dismay of what this person has done. He has taken so many lives and hurt so many. I do not understand what someone gets out of from doing these radical ignorant things. My heart bleeds for the victims and their families. We need better protection in our free country. One thing that we need is stricter gun laws. If someone has been interrogated by any federal agency and was placed on the no fly list, they should be marked and not allowed to purchase these weapons, even if they are removed from these lists. To all my brothers and sisters in the LGBTQ community, I am praying with you just like everyone else worldwide is. I pray that things like this never happens again.


I can’t wait for June to get here, as I will be possibly traveling to Pigeon Forge, Tennessee for a week to spend time with family that I haven’t seen in quite sometime. This will be the first time that I have gotten to travel since 2012 when I went to California and spent a month and a half there and wish I wouldn’t have left that beautiful state. Hopefully I will be able to go to Tennessee and enjoy the time with family and see new things and possibly new opportunities that are offered there.

Family Reunion

In just a short few weeks, I will be traveling to the amazing city of Pigeon Forge, Tennessee and spending a week there with all of my family for a week long family reunion with all kinds of activities planned for all of us to do. This is going to be a fun and eventful time that I can not wait for and it couldn’t come fast enough for me. It still seems like it is a long way until the time we depart on our long 8 hour journey from driving all the way there as it will be a long drive and my first long distance drive that I have ever done and I can’t wait to experience that as well. I know that I will be taking a lot of pictures to chronolog my adventures in Tennessee. This will be a great opportunity for me and my mom to get out and spend some time together. There is still a lot of things that I have to get done before I can even leave to get there from preparing to getting my car tuned up of the adventure. So heres to a great family reunion.