Dear Your Name:

This is hard to say to you, but I’ll say something a little easier. I want to thank you for always being a friend that anyone could ask for and always being there for me when I needed someone especially when I attempted suicide because I thought I had no one in my life. I don’t know what I would do without having you as a friend in my life. I will always be there for you when you need something and always will be.

Now here comes that hard part. I’ve always handed out to you and never get anything in return back. We make arrangements on how to give back and it never happens. You always end up wanting to change the arrangement to something that better suits you. I’m not trying to complain even though that is what it sounds like. Whenever I have the cash I always hand out to you and never ask for anything in return, and when I do ask for something in return, you say ok that fine we can do that and then it never happens and then you completely change it to something else that benefits you as always.

Sometimes, I just wish I never handed out to you but I have the biggest heart and can’t say no. But you have no difficulty of saying no to me. I am going to start being just like you and not give 2 fucks who I hurt and when I do it. This is the hardest thing ever after everything that we’ve been through together but I have to start somewhere and this is where I’m going to start.

I don’t want this to stop our friendship but this is just how I am currently feeling.


Joshua C.