Bettering Myself

I am trying to better myself and make something of myself. Recently I have joined the local gym to better my health and overal self esteem. I have even applied with a local hiring agency as well to find gainful employment to also help with my self esteem and other aspects of my life. 

It doesn’t help when I have people texting me and being a total bitch because I didn’t respond the second I got their text. With my counseling that I’ve been attending for the past 2 years, I’ve been told and learned that I need to separate myself from negative influences in my life. I have finally begun to implement that into my life and people aren’t happy about that. But you know what, I have to do me in order for me to do better in my life. I don’t need the negativity in my life as that isn’t gonna help my health in any means or my self esteem. All its gonns do it keep dragging me down into a pit that I won’t be able to crawl out of. 

I want to be able to take care of myself and depend on myself for thin gs that I need in my life and the things that I want in my life. If I continue to allow these negativities in my life I won’t be able to accomplish these things or anything. Another thi I want to be able to do is take care of my mother the way she should be taken care of as the way that she has taken care of me during my life and when I was struggling. 

So yes I am trying to do something for myself and make myself better for me, and it has to start with me weeding out as much of the negativity in my life as possible. I a, starting little by little but that’s all you can do and at least I’m trying and that’s all that matters.