I can say drunks are getting on my last nerve. People wonder why I don’t drink that often as they are annoying as fuck. Especially the one that I have to be a chauffeur too. Expects me to drop what I’m doing and come to his so called rescue and get him. Well my dumbass does and he ain’t even ready to be picked up yet when I get there. I can say that I’m tired of doing this shit. It would be different if when I got to the destination and he was ready so we could go so I can get back to what I was doing but nope that don’t ever happen. 

I don’t know what to do anymore. I hate being an ass especially to him as he’s my bro he just gets on my last nerve sometimes and aggravates me at times. I hate telling him no cuz he’s always there for me when I need him. 

It just kills me seeing him drinking so much all the time. I don’t wanna see him on his death bed from all his drinking as I’ve already  seen that before and don’t want to again. It just hurts seeing him do this to himself and act like he don’t care. I’ve done experienced it once and don’t wanna experience it again and loose someone else. 

A couple of years ago I lost my uncle from all his drinking. I experienced seeing him literally on his death bed in the hospital and all he wanted was to see his Joshie and he got to see me. I only seen him that one time as I couldn’t handle it and vowed to never see anyone like that before. Shortly after that my dearest uncle ended passing away and I couldn’t handle it. I couldn’t attend his funeral as it was too much for me as that was the only uncle that I was really attached to and could go to for anything. That’s what I’m afraid of happening to this dumbass. And I won’t be able to handle that at all.